I think out of all the memories we made this year, there are three that I will never forget of 2010 as long as I live. The moment I saw my baby girl for the first time. The moment the doctor told us she had Down Syndrome. And the moment I actually registered the information.
It has been the happiest year of my life, and at some points, the saddest. I still have good days and I have bad days when it comes to how I cope with the fact she has special needs. But you know what? The good days are starting to outweigh the bad ones. When I look at her and I see how strong she has become. When I look at her doing things I was told she wouldn't do yet. Every day she surprises me and she shouldn't. And
it's not because I didn't think she could do it. I know she can. It's because I can't believe with how weak I was in the beginning of all this, with all my crying and self pitying, that I created a baby who is so strong.
Giselle,
You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I thought being a mommy of a special needs baby was all about me teaching you how to roll, how to sit, how to eat. But it's been about you teaching me that you don't need me to do these things. That you are capable and strong without the crutches. I promise to expect more from you in the next year. My expectations for your life are high and I promise to never let you down. I love you Boogerton Jones, and I can't wait for you to teach me more in 2011.
Love,
Mommy
Special thanks this year to nurse Mary. You've been there for me when I felt very alone. You never told me what I wanted to hear, only what I needed to. I'm so glad that we delivered at your hospital and I was able to meet you. I don't know where I would be without knowing I have you to talk. Thank you.
And now the year 2010, told through photos:
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